(Just a forewarning: This will be a stream of consciousness blog post so forgive me.)
I'm terrified.
We've talked a lot about my emotional projection onto things like TV shows and most recently, a basketball team.
Tonight was their last home game and I went because my dad realized how important it was to me. Their last game is coming up in the next couple of days.
And I'm scared about what will happen when it's all over. I've been projecting emotions on them for months at this point and as soon as that false reality that I've built up collapses, I'm scared because the last time it ended, I relapsed in my self harm and I stopped talking to friends and lost interest in everything again.
I mean, it was with Supernatural but I'm sure it'll be no different this time.
I am so afraid guys and I don't know what to do.
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