Ode to Messing Up Your Children

It is a strange thing, not feeling an emotional connection to anything in your life.
Now that the dramatic first line hook is out of the way, let me offer you some friendly advice. When you grow up, whether or not you get married, but if you happen to have and keep children, don't move. Now, when I say don't move, I mean don't get up and move your family to a completely new set of surroundings--whether they be cities, states, countries. Maybe doing it once or twice is okay, but any more than that, and you'll end up with a seriously messed up kid.
Prime example of one of these messed up kids would be myself. I have moved a total of seven (eight? six? I have a tendency to forget) times in my life. The majority of them was when I was very young. My parents figured that that would be okay because, well I was a child and new and different things is what being a child is all about.
Let me tell you, oh how wrong they were. Every time that we moved, we would throw away probably seventy percent of our things and then just buy new ones when we got all settled in. I'm talking, furniture, clothes, books, toys.
I never, ever developed emotion attachments to anything I owned because of this. What I mean by owned is any of the things listed above and, more importantly, people.
This next part may make me sound like a completely and horrible person but it takes a hell of a lot to get me to actually care about you. I'm talking about years upon years of hard work of chipping away at me to finally get me to crack.
And even when you do, and let me tell you, that is rare, it's as easy for me as discarding a used tissue to be over you. See, I get bored with people. I get bored with people because I've seen and met so many that if you're not constantly offering up new and interesting things about yourself, that you can quickly become bland to me.
I had to learn to do this. There was literally no other option in my life than to have such a complete emotional shut down. I couldn't afford the energy it takes to say goodbye to people I love and to stay in contact with them.
Which is one reason the majority of my friends from my old hometown have been dropped. I wish I could have invested my heart into them, I really do, but I knew what would happen and I knew I would end up having to leave and so I didn't.
I just can't let myself get hurt and this was the easiest way out.
Oh, how fucked up  I am.